remembering

today pere (older teacher at my art school) was in rare form. so was the whole of portal del angel where my art school is located. in the middle of pere prancing around the room and asking me whether i was awake or dreaming at the moment (which i was having a little difficulty answering to his satisfaction) the lights went off and on for about the fifth time that hour. he said it was from all the consuming this time of year. we use and spend a lot right now. i can't help but feel a little disappointed in my own ability to get caught up in the commericialism and hype that we label the holidays. i must say i've got the shopping bags and a little of stress to show for it. don't get me wrong. i love the christmas cookies. the lights decorating the city....the moments of just being with friends and remembering Christ's entrance. i just want to do a little more of that right now. remembering.