forgetful

i've been thinking a lot lately about the future and just how strange a thing it is. i like to think of myself as a pretty laid-back person but bring up the issue of what is comming and i convert into this insecure, fingernail-biting, coffee guzzling (ok, already am), stuttering being. it shouldn't suprise me...i ran in circles deciding which college would be my new home and paced for 9 months until i thought i would drive everyone around me nuts until finding myself on this side of the atlantic. and now 9 months before i am planned to cross back over the atlantic, i see myself in the same situation. i am so odd. and forgetful. when i have a still moment, and remember, i see the path that i've been on and who has guided me through it all. and i am thankful. i just need to remind myself of that each morning. because i am forgetful.